I put these pins together because they're the lines I keep coming back to right now.
"The tools I use to harm myself are wearing down."
I noticed this first in my body. The nails I used to pick at my skin were breaking. Literally. The tools themselves were wearing down. I used to claw at my arms, sometimes until they bled. I cut my thighs in places no one would see. I picked my acne. I always had nail problems on and off too. I never connected it.
Then I started learning about the mind-body connection, the idea that our physical symptoms often carry emotional weight. Our bodies speak the language we don't have words for. A lot of what I thought were random aches, annoying hangnails, or skin picking were actually my body trying to tell me something I couldn't say out loud.
Louise Hay taught that the body maps what the mind carries. My symptoms weren't random. The picking, the cutting, the tearing — those were the physical version of what I was doing to myself emotionally. The relentless self criticism, the perfectionism, the need to control what I couldn't control. I was picking on myself with my mind, and then I picked on myself with my hands. Same pattern, different tool.
The picking was never just physical. It was a physical expression of a deeper pattern. I picked at my skin because I couldn't pick at the thing that was actually frustrating me. I couldn't say no, couldn't set the boundary, couldn't express the anger. So I turned it inward. I made myself the target. The picking is my anger with nowhere to go.
The emotional tool was self-criticism. The relentless voice that said I was wrong, too much, not enough. And the picking was the physical translation of that voice. Same pattern, different form.
Now the nails are breaking. The physical tool is wearing down. And so is the voice. The self-criticism is quieter. The need to control is loosening. The patterns I used to tear myself apart are not gone. But they're getting weaker. The tools are wearing down.
"I love me more than ever now."
This is from the last song on my album Mirror, Mirror Off The Wall. I used to hate myself. I used to believe I was too much, stupid, ugly, gross, not enough, a burden. I'm still learning, but I can honestly say I love me more than ever now. I've come a long way from not wanting to be alive.
"No one is coming to set me free. I rescue me."
From YOUNIVERSE. I spent so long waiting for someone to save me, a partner, a parent, a therapist, a god. But the rescue was always mine. I had to be the one to reach for the mirror, to look, to stay, to feel. To love myself, anyway.
"I'm still sensitive."
From Couldn't Be Quieted on my album OLD BONES. I used to be ashamed of my sensitivity. I was told I cried too much, felt too much, was too much. But I'm still sensitive. And that's not a weakness. That's how I survived. That's how I feel the world. That's how I write songs. I'm learning to give my hyper-vigilance a new job, to reframe it as awareness instead of alarm, to let it be a guide instead of a guard. I'm still sensitive, and I'm learning to trust that.
These are the lines that are resonating with me right now. I thought someone else might need them too. If you do, they're here. And if you don't, that's okay too. I mostly just wanted to put the thoughts out there.
Thank you for looking.
🐦⬛
Product Details:
They’re lightweight, sturdy, and easy to put on. With a scratch and UV-resistant coating and a glossy finish, these pin buttons are made to last.
• They come in a set of 5
• Made of tinplate
• Scratch and UV-resistant mylar coating
• Glossy finish
• Easy to put on
Age restrictions: For adults
EU Warranty: 2 years
Other compliance information: Meets the flammability, lead, cadmium, mercury, nickel, phthalates, organotin, Polycyclic aromatic hydrocarbons, small parts, sharp edges and sharp point level requirements.
In compliance with the General Product Safety Regulation (GPSR), Oak inc. and SINDEN VENTURES LIMITED ensure that all consumer products offered are safe and meet EU standards. For any product safety related inquiries or concerns, please contact our EU representative at gpsr@sindenventures.com. You can also write to us at 123 Main Street, Anytown, Country or Markou Evgenikou 11, Mesa Geitonia, 4002, Limassol, Cyprus.
I put these pins together because they're the lines I keep coming back to right now.
"The tools I use to harm myself are wearing down."
I noticed this first in my body. The nails I used to pick at my skin were breaking. Literally. The tools themselves were wearing down. I used to claw at my arms, sometimes until they bled. I cut my thighs in places no one would see. I picked my acne. I always had nail problems on and off too. I never connected it.
Then I started learning about the mind-body connection, the idea that our physical symptoms often carry emotional weight. Our bodies speak the language we don't have words for. A lot of what I thought were random aches, annoying hangnails, or skin picking were actually my body trying to tell me something I couldn't say out loud.
Louise Hay taught that the body maps what the mind carries. My symptoms weren't random. The picking, the cutting, the tearing — those were the physical version of what I was doing to myself emotionally. The relentless self criticism, the perfectionism, the need to control what I couldn't control. I was picking on myself with my mind, and then I picked on myself with my hands. Same pattern, different tool.
The picking was never just physical. It was a physical expression of a deeper pattern. I picked at my skin because I couldn't pick at the thing that was actually frustrating me. I couldn't say no, couldn't set the boundary, couldn't express the anger. So I turned it inward. I made myself the target. The picking is my anger with nowhere to go.
The emotional tool was self-criticism. The relentless voice that said I was wrong, too much, not enough. And the picking was the physical translation of that voice. Same pattern, different form.
Now the nails are breaking. The physical tool is wearing down. And so is the voice. The self-criticism is quieter. The need to control is loosening. The patterns I used to tear myself apart are not gone. But they're getting weaker. The tools are wearing down.
"I love me more than ever now."
This is from the last song on my album Mirror, Mirror Off The Wall. I used to hate myself. I used to believe I was too much, stupid, ugly, gross, not enough, a burden. I'm still learning, but I can honestly say I love me more than ever now. I've come a long way from not wanting to be alive.
"No one is coming to set me free. I rescue me."
From YOUNIVERSE. I spent so long waiting for someone to save me, a partner, a parent, a therapist, a god. But the rescue was always mine. I had to be the one to reach for the mirror, to look, to stay, to feel. To love myself, anyway.
"I'm still sensitive."
From Couldn't Be Quieted on my album OLD BONES. I used to be ashamed of my sensitivity. I was told I cried too much, felt too much, was too much. But I'm still sensitive. And that's not a weakness. That's how I survived. That's how I feel the world. That's how I write songs. I'm learning to give my hyper-vigilance a new job, to reframe it as awareness instead of alarm, to let it be a guide instead of a guard. I'm still sensitive, and I'm learning to trust that.
These are the lines that are resonating with me right now. I thought someone else might need them too. If you do, they're here. And if you don't, that's okay too. I mostly just wanted to put the thoughts out there.
Thank you for looking.
🐦⬛
Product Details:
They’re lightweight, sturdy, and easy to put on. With a scratch and UV-resistant coating and a glossy finish, these pin buttons are made to last.
• They come in a set of 5
• Made of tinplate
• Scratch and UV-resistant mylar coating
• Glossy finish
• Easy to put on
Age restrictions: For adults
EU Warranty: 2 years
Other compliance information: Meets the flammability, lead, cadmium, mercury, nickel, phthalates, organotin, Polycyclic aromatic hydrocarbons, small parts, sharp edges and sharp point level requirements.
In compliance with the General Product Safety Regulation (GPSR), Oak inc. and SINDEN VENTURES LIMITED ensure that all consumer products offered are safe and meet EU standards. For any product safety related inquiries or concerns, please contact our EU representative at gpsr@sindenventures.com. You can also write to us at 123 Main Street, Anytown, Country or Markou Evgenikou 11, Mesa Geitonia, 4002, Limassol, Cyprus.
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