Lyrics I Lived First

Mirror work — meets meltdown — meets magick

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🖤 GORGEOUS was my first full album — Lyrics live in its own tab.

Now I’m writing FVNERAL
It’s not just an album. It’s a burial.
Each song is a ghost, a Major Arcana Tarot card reversed
a false self built to survive.

You’ll also find standalone songs here —
about mirrors and magick, rage and release, trauma and more.
Every one of them was a spell I needed at the time.
Maybe one of them is for you, too.

I’m slowly adding lyrics to everything I’ve made. The music is streaming on all platforms.
If you’re here reading — thank you.

The other pages?
Just bones I left behind for anyone still digging.

Always writing more. Check back in — I’m a Scorpio. I die often, update accordingly, and if that fails, I die again.

Crow holds the FVNERAL gate.
Leave the light on

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Unbraced - Lyrics

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Bless Their Hearts - Lyrics

Bless Their Hearts - Lyrics

Bless Their Hearts is me catching my own tongue mid-swing.
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I wrote this one in the quiet after the insult, where the shame sits. Where the mirror doesn’t blink.

This track isn’t about forgiving them.
It’s about facing me.
It’s about learning to speak without bleeding.
To name without blame.
To let go of the story that made me feel powerful by making someone else small.

This is what it sounds like when I clean my mouth and bless their name.

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