[INTRO]
What if I am too heavy to hold?
What if you get tired of me?
Crow ruffles her feathers.
She shakes off the rain.
Come here,
you strange little thing.
We'll make room.
I can sit beside
what you cannot carry.
Put some of it down.
[VERSE 1]
I close my eyes.
Crow keeps hers open.
Do you see me when I hide?
When I hate my own face?
When I hate what I feel?
Do you see me
when I hate me?
When you feel like
trash in the dump,
that's when I
show up.
You want to disappear
and still hope
someone finds you.
I know which corners
you crawl into.
I know what you call yourself
when you're alone.
Your hiding place
has room for two.
[PRE-CHORUS]
If only you knew
what I see in you.
(Borrow my eyes.)
[CHORUS]
I love you more
than every feather on every crow.
I love you more
than the dark can throw.
I love you more
than every tear you've cried.
I love you more
than you'll ever know.
[VERSE 2]
I am afraid.
I am still afraid.
I'm just pretending
to be brave.
And I am so tired.
[VERSE 3]
Crow says,
"I wish you could
borrow my eyes for a minute.
You'd catch yourself
doing something beautiful.
I love the way
you turn things over,
even when you find
something sharp
underneath.
I see you put things back
before anyone knows they fell.
I see you try again
with all your old doubts
talking at once.
If you're afraid tomorrow,
then I'll be here tomorrow."
[CHORUS]
I love you more
than every feather on every crow.
I love you more
than the dark can throw.
I love you more
than every tear you've cried.
I love you more
than you'll ever know.
[BRIDGE]
Your grief is here
in the morning light.
Your fear has found
somewhere to rest.
Your anger spills out beside us.
Beneath all that noise,
I hear you wanting something more.
Still you reach.
Still you try.
Show me how you almost fly.
[CHORUS]
I love you more
than every feather on every crow.
I love you more
than the dark can throw.
I love you more
than every tear you've cried.
I love you more
than you'll ever know.
[OUTRO]
Every feather.
Every crow.
Every place you're scared to go.
(I love you more.)
I Love You More Than Every Feather on Every Crow is a sister song to Mother Crow, and another attempt to give myself the reassurance I'm still learning to believe. I write these words from the love I needed growing up, the tenderness I long for, and the way I hope to speak to myself more often.
Some days I can offer that kindness easily. Other days, I struggle to believe a word of it. So I turn those words into music and play them on repeat, hoping the little girl in me hears them. I hope this song offers some of the same comfort and companionship I wanted Mother Crow to offer.
