[INTRO]
Your hand is in my hair.
I'm falling half asleep.
The television's talking.
I'm somewhere in between.
Big bouncing boobs pop on the TV.
Me in my robe with messy hair.
She's naked in our living room.
(She's naked in our living room.)
I'm feeling wide awake now.
[VERSE 1]
I start watching your eyes
instead of the show.
I curl into myself.
Arms across my stomach.
My heart pounds
in my ears.
I run my fingers over the scars
on my face.
Her skin is smooth.
My skin has craters.
Her breasts are perky.
One of mine hangs lower.
[BUILD]
I'm sitting here all frumpy,
and she's bouncing across the screen.
[CHORUS]
I'm sorry I don't look like that.
Sorry you have to look at me.
Tell me I'm beautiful.
Tell me you only want me.
I'm sorry I don't look like that.
I'll never look like that.
Look at me.
[POST-CHORUS]
Did you see her?
Don't you wish I looked like that?
You're hiding something.
You're tired of me.
And it follows me
everywhere.
Even when I'm shopping
for myself.
[VERSE 2]
I just wanna buy
a pretty bra online.
Something lacy,
something mine.
I'm staring at the models,
wondering if
you'd want them instead.
Now she's in the
browsing history,
with the cat litter
and cookies.
So I try the store instead,
where the mannequins
look great.
Underneath harsh lights,
I'm undressing for a cruel mirror.
I try the first one on.
...and hate myself a little more.
I came here to feel pretty.
Now I wanna disappear.
I put the bra back.
Let them have the pretty things.
[BREAKDOWN]
I'm a joke for thinking
I'm sexy enough for you.
Insecure girls get cheated on.
Insecure girls get left.
Insecure girls get burned.
[PRE-CHORUS 2]
I wish I was afraid of clowns.
I'd stay away from the circus.
But all it takes is a pair of tits,
and suddenly I'm worthless.
Pretty bodies everywhere.
On televisions,
billboards,
grocery aisles,
and phone screens.
[CHORUS]
I'm sorry I don't look like that.
Sorry you have to look at me.
Tell me I'm beautiful.
Tell me you only want me.
I'm sorry I don't look like that.
I'll never look like that.
Look at me.
[BRIDGE]
Flirt with me.
I want you to.
I want you to want to.
Bear with me.
I'm having a rough minute.
[FINAL CHORUS]
I'm sorry I don't look like that.
Sorry you have to look at me.
Tell me I'm beautiful.
Tell me you only want me.
I'm sorry I don't look like that.
I'll never look like that.
Look at me.
[OUTRO]
We've circled around this
many times.
I try to keep the questions
in my mouth.
I kiss you goodnight.
I get quiet.
My thoughts get loud.
The television is off.
You fall asleep.
I'm wide awake.
I'm scared of what I'll dream.
I close my eyes.
There she is again.
They're all still there.
