The Serpent
(A Devotional Song for Hadit)
I am not a victim of circumstances.
I create as I speak.
(Scroll below lyrics to read about the song)
[Intro ]
"I am the flame that burns in every heart,
and in the core of every star.
I am Life,
and the giver of Life,
yet to know me is to know death.
I am the Snake that giveth Knowledge & Delight."
(Hadit.)
[Verse 1 – What The Serpent Is]
What I thought was real —
The Serpent unravels it.
Smaller than small.
Larger than large.
Zero width.
Infinite spin.
Everywhere at once.
Yet nowhere found.
The Serpent breathes the dream I call awake.
Every shimmer,
every shadow,
every solid thing.
Serpent destroys.
The Serpent eats its own tail.
I come near. I find myself.
Illusion unravels.
The Serpent intoxicates me with my own purpose.
The flame in my heart has no other name but Hadit.
The flame is me.
I stop looking for a god in the sky.
Hadit is the god as me.
I bow to The Serpent.
I bow to me.
[Pre‑chorus]
Friction sharpens my desire.
I am the cut that heals as it opens.
[Chorus – The Hook]
Will before the why.
Coils at the center —
The Serpent.
I am thou.
There is no other God where I am.
(I am thou.)
Inflame thyself in prayer.
I greet the light within me.
(Serpent. Serpent.)
[Verse 2 – Devotee's Prayer]
The Serpent's silence is my shield.
You are me. I am you.
Witness what I cannot fix.
My old alarm rings —
I stay coiled and ready.
Burn in me.
Inhale.
Exhale Hadit.
I borrow your stillness until mine returns.
You are the silence after my scream.
My grief warms itself.
You are the stillness around it.
Fold yourself into my seeing.
My eyes are your eyes.
My hunger is your hunger.
My yes is your yes.
I offer you nothing.
You ask for nothing.
Spark to spark,
center to center.
Winged snake of light,
I call you by your name —
Serpent,
Hadit,
the flame that burns in me.
[Pre‑chorus]
Friction sharpens my desire.
I am the cut that heals as it opens.
[Chorus – The Hook]
Will before the why.
Coils at the center —
The Serpent.
I am thou.
There is no other God where I am.
(I am thou.)
Inflame thyself in prayer.
I greet the light within me.
(Serpent. Serpent.)
[Bridge – The Climb]
Despair rises to relief.
Relief rises to hope.
Hope rises to joy.
The Serpent stays still.
I learn the shape of my hunger
by tasting what I do not crave.
The dark makes me reach for light.
I am not a victim of circumstances.
I create as I speak.
I am ready.
[Chorus – shortened]
There is no other God where I am.
(I am thou.)
Inflame thyself in prayer.
I greet the light within me.
(Serpent. Serpent.)
[Outro]
The serpent waits until I lean.
Waiting teaches me.
Eat. See. Know.
I bite. My eyes open.
I am home.
(Serpent.)
About the Song:
In Liber Astarte, Aleister Crowley wrote that choosing a single deity for devotion is simple: pick the one suited to your highest nature. He said this method works best for deities that partake of love — not cold or purely intellectual forces, but ones you can pour your whole heart toward.
I chose Hadit.
Hadit is the secret center, the point of view, the flame that burns in every heart and in the core of every star. He is not a god outside me. He is the name I give to my own will, my own awareness, my own coiled potential. When Crowley wrote "I am the Snake that giveth Knowledge & Delight," I heard the serpent of Eden — not a tempter, but a liberator. The fruit was not poison. The fruit was permission.
I made this song for my own ears. For the hard days. For the mornings when I wake up with a toddler already screaming and my own nervous system already ringing.
I wrote it during weed withdrawal. I'm still trying to quit nicotine. The vape is still in my hand more days than I want. On FVNERAL of False Selves, I wrote a song called "Pacifier" to help me stop reaching for comfort. But I'm still reaching. So I needed something else. A different kind of focus. A sound I could put on repeat until the coil in my chest remembers its shape.
This is that sound.
I wrote this song to teach myself about Hadit. I chose Hadit this week — literally this week. I had already written "Father Crow" for the Crow Family album, and Father Crow is also about Hadit. But this is different. This is devotion. This is me leaning into one face of the divine until the distance closes.
The line "I create as I speak" is a nod to ABRAHADABRA, the Thelemic word of the new Aeon. I need that reminder on days when my words feel small.
I write from my ideal self — the woman I want to become. I am still in the gap. I am still a mom in a kitchen, still navigating meltdowns, still trying to hold boundaries without becoming authoritarian. I love my son. I also lose my patience more than I'd like. This song is me turning inward. It is me trying to parent differently by first parenting myself.
I am not a teacher. I am a student who writes to survive her own insides. I share this in case someone else has been looking for a god outside themselves — and needs to hear that the god is already coiled within.
If this helps someone else, that's a gift. If not, it's just a breadcrumb from my own walk.
⚡ Decoding Hadit: The Limitless Point
Hadit is the principal speaker of the second chapter of The Book of the Law, received by Aleister Crowley in 1904. He is more than a deity; he is the fundamental principle of consciousness, will, and pure potential. To understand him, we must understand his relationship with Nuit.
If Nuit is the goddess of infinite space, the vast, passive circle of all possibilities, then Hadit is the infinitely small, active point at the center of that circle.
Think of a vast, empty sky (Nuit). For any experience to occur, a point of view is needed—an observer to witness the sky. That point of observation, the "eye" that sees, the "I" that experiences, is Hadit. Crowley describes him as "the flame that burns in every heart of man, and in the core of every star."
When I thought of Hadit for single‑deity devotion, I was seeing a new truth: to devote myself to Hadit is to devote myself to my own will, my own perspective, my own unique flame — not ego, but sovereignty.
📖 In Crowley's The Book of the Law: The Living Verses
The Book of the Law (Liber AL vel Legis) reveals Hadit's nature directly. He is the "great God, the lord of the sky," depicted on the ancient Stele of Revealing as the Winged Sun‑Disk, Behdeti, an ancient Egyptian form of Horus.
Here is how Hadit speaks of himself in the text:
🔹 The Secret Center & The House of Khabs
"I am the flame that burns in every heart of man, and in the core of every star. I am Life, and the giver of Life, yet therefore is the knowledge of me the knowledge of death." — AL II, 6
This verse identifies Hadit as the innermost core of all existence, from the human heart to the distant stars. He is the Impersonal Identity within the Individuality of "every man and every woman." His "house" is called the Khabs, an ancient Egyptian word for a star. Each person is a star, and at the center of that star is their unique Hadit.
🔹 The Un‑Extended Point
"I am not extended, and Khabs is the name of my House." — AL II, 2
Nuit is infinite extension. Hadit is "not extended" — he has no dimension, no size, no location. He is everywhere at once, the "cubit in the circle," the axle of the wheel — the still point around which all possibility revolves. Because he is everywhere, he is also "alone," saying, "I am alone: there is no God where I am."
🔹 The Co‑Creator with Nuit
"I am the complement of Nu, my bride." — AL II, 2
Hadit is not a separate, external creator. He is the necessary polar opposite to Nuit. He is the "formative, causal, and initiatory" aspect. Their conjunction creates Ra‑Hoor‑Khuit, the manifested universe and the new consciousness of the Aeon of the Child. The four elements are also seen as "the four secret folds of the robe of the mother Nuit," animated by the presence of Hadit.
🏛️ In Ancient Egyptian Religion: The Winged Sun Disk
Hadit is not a purely "modern" invention. Crowley adapted him from the ancient Egyptian Behdeti, the Winged Sun Disk.
This symbol was placed over temple doorways for protection and represented divine authority, power, and the omnipresence of Horus. The winged disk embodies the expansive, protective nature of the sun's rays. In Thelema, this Egyptian symbol has been re‑imagined: it no longer represents a literal sun in the sky, but the "sun" of each individual star — our own unique, divine spark. This is Thelema's radical democratization of divinity: every person is their own center of the universe.
📜 Key Concepts & Correspondences of Hadit
Symbol: The Winged Sun‑Disk (Behdeti)
Identity: The Ego, Atman, "The Witness," the innate divine spark
Nature: The "Infinite Contraction" (vs. Nuit's "Infinite Expansion")
Core Motto:"Every man and every woman is a star"
🧠 Lon Milo DuQuette's Humorous Clarity
Lon Milo DuQuette — who made Crowley most accessible to me — puts it this way:
"Our New Aeon idea of Hadit is 'the infinitely small point within the core of every single thing.'"
This is Hadit in a nutshell. He is the ultimate ground of our being. To connect with him is to remember that you are a star, a unique and sovereign point of consciousness.
✨ Spiritual & Mystical Dimensions of Hadit
Kundalini & Tantra: Hadit is identified with Kundalini, the coiled serpent of spiritual energy at the base of the spine. The "winged snake of light, coiled and ready" imagery from the Stele invocation is resonant with this.
Maker & Destroyer of Illusion: Hadit is "both the Maker of Illusion and its destroyer." His interplay with Nuit produces the finite world (Maya). Withdrawing into himself destroys it, revealing the underlying unity.
"Inflame Thyself in Prayer": The path to Hadit is through passionate, focused devotion — the exact practice I'm exploring. The goal is to unite your consciousness with Him, realizing that our individual will is His will.
🔥 Eve, the Serpent, and the Fruit
In the Genesis story, the serpent tells Eve: "You will not surely die. For God knows that when you eat of it your eyes will be opened, and you will be like God."
The serpent offered knowledge and delight. The fruit was not poison. The fruit was permission.
Crowley identified Hadit with that same serpent. Not the devil. Not a tempter. The liberator who whispered: Eat. See. Know. You are not a slave. You are a star.
When I wrote "I bite. My eyes open. I am home" — that is Eve's bite. That is Hadit's gift. The fall was not a curse. The fall was the first step out of a cage.
🎈 Abraham Hicks (Made Simple)
I weave Abraham Hicks into my undercurrents because they break big concepts into plain, warm, usable language. Here is how Abraham helps me understand Hadit:
Source Energy – The pure "I am" before the body.
Hadit is that point of Source. Not a god outside me — the god as me.The Vortex – Everything I have ever asked for already exists in vibrational form.
Hadit is the vortex's center. The point of focused will that attracts what I've asked for.Contrast – The stuff I don't want shows me what I do want.
Hadit uses contrast like a whetstone. The alone point sharpens itself against what it is not.Alignment – Feeling good without forcing it.
Hadit is alignment. The point does not struggle. The point simply is in its orbit.The Emotional Scale– From despair to joy, one rung at a time.
Hadit does not demand instant joy. Hadit waits at the top. Each rung is a coil unwinding.You are the creator – I am not a victim of circumstances. I attract what I vibrate.
Hadit is the creator. The point chooses its focus. The focus becomes the life.Nothing to fix – I do not need to heal everything before I can feel good. Just get into alignment now.
Hadit does not fix. Hadit witnesses. The fixing happens in the witness, not by force.
These teachings help me translate Crowley's older English into my kitchen‑floor magick. I keep Abraham in my back pocket for the hard days when "Inflame thyself in prayer" feels like too many syllables.
📚 How I Study (Musical Flashcards)
I was always a list‑making, note‑taking, index cards, thesaurus‑using girl. I still learn that way.
I stitch my notes and studies into songs. I call them my musical flashcards. Each song is a way to hold a concept in my body, to hear it back, to let it land somewhere deeper than my thinking mind.
The Serpent is a flashcard for Hadit. Adore the Sun is a flashcard for Liber Resh. Crow Family is a flashcard for external safe others (Inspired by Lavinia Brown). I write music for the woman I want to become — not the one I've already mastered. I am still in the gap. Still becoming the things I write about.
🐍 Why I Chose Hadit (And Why This Week)
I used to call myself a chaos magician. I only recently started calling myself a Thelemite. I learned from Maevius Lynn on YouTube — she talks about magick with depth and clarity, and she helped me see that the only real requirement is accepting The Book of the Law. I accept it. I study it. I argue with it. I write songs about it.
I chose Hadit for single‑deity devotion this week — literally this week. Crowley said in Liber Astarte to pick a deity suited to your highest nature, one that partakes of love. I picked the point.
I am not a teacher. I am a student. Maevius knows more than me. So do many others. If you're curious, go find your own teachers. Go down your own rabbit hole. I'm just leaving a trail.
🌱 Where I Practice
I practice what I can hold. I come back for more when I am ready. Some days I hold very little — just a breath, just a line, just a chant. That counts to me. One step at a time.
I write because my inner child, Sarah, never got to speak — and now she has a whole library of songs.
🖤 Closing
May you find your own point.
May you coil in the dark without fear.
May you bite the fruit that opens your eyes.
And may you remember, even on the hard days: you are a star.
Crows on the wire, still learning, still leaning. 🐦⬛
