đź–¤ Lyrics I Lived First

These songs started in my nervous system.
The ache. The silence. The part that braced. The scream no one translated.

I lived every lyric first.
Then I use Suno AI to give them a voice and instruments.
I don’t sing the songs myself. I write them. I survive them. I finish them.

What you hear is sorcery for closet songwriters: words stitched into sound.
What you read is survival turned into music.

đź“€ My first full album lives on the GORGEOUS page.
This space is for all the single releases—the songs that keep coming.

🏚 The site is still under reconstruction.
Pages are shifting. Bones are showing. I’m gutting it as I go.

The homepage is music. Because it always was. Every other link? Just bones I left behind for those crawling back to their own body.

👇 Scroll for the songs.

I AM THE FURNACE – Lyrics

I AM THE FURNACE – Lyrics

I wrote “I Am the Furnace” because I got tired of swallowing my rage. This isn’t a song—it’s a reckoning. I’m holding the heat for every silenced kid, every woman who bit her tongue, every scream that got misnamed as crazy. This blog is a body-map back to your fire—lyrics, ritual, and the truth about what rage really is when you stop pretending it’s bad.

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SOCIAL SICKNESS – Lyrics

SOCIAL SICKNESS – Lyrics

This blog unpacks the lyrics to “Social Sickness,” a truth-spell disguised as a song. It explores what happens when your body says no before you do—through sore throats, gut pain, fatigue, and post-event crashes. Drawing from somatic wisdom and real-life experience, it turns shame into signal and illness into insight. Readers will learn how to decode their own body’s no, cancel with power, and reclaim their sacred boundaries.

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SPELL IN THE SPINE – Lyrics

SPELL IN THE SPINE – Lyrics

This is a song for the ones whose bodies broke the silence before their mouths could. Spell in the Spine names back pain as a sacred messenger—a Featherlock—where the nervous system stores unspoken truths. Inspired by Sarno, Ozanich, and Louise Hay, Loui Crow transforms chronic ache into chant, and diagnosis into a liberation spell. This track teaches the listener how to listen to the body like a holy book.

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Nice is the Disease - Lyrics

Nice is the Disease - Lyrics

This blog dissects the sickness of being “nice” when it costs you your truth. It reveals how fawning, false guilt, and boundaryless compassion get mistaken for love—and how that performance poisons the soul. Through raw story and lyrics, it offers a way out: back to self-trust, clear boundaries, and connection that doesn’t require self-erasure. You’ll walk away knowing the difference between real care and holy contortion.

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🪶 Featherlock - Lyrics

🪶 Featherlock - Lyrics

A ritual song for nervous system healing and emotional release. It explores how physical pain stores emotional memory, and how old loyalty patterns leave somatic marks. With chant-style affirmations and poetic cadence, it creates a permission space for softness, truth-telling, and spiritual reentry. It’s not about pain management—it’s about spell-breaking.

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