17. HOARDER (Star)
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Patcher — hold the walls.
Patcher — walls hold me.
We fall together or not at all.
HOARDER — The Star Reversed
Hoarder ghost —
taught me to keep.
I built my whole life
around the belief
that it all falls apart.
I am a collection
of everyone's expectations.
The original is missing.
Hoarder is me.
Someone asks:
"What is she saving?"
Crow says:
"Everything but herself."
VERSE 1
The sun rises.
I turn my back.
Let it rise without me.
My hands forgot
what they were holding.
White-knuckled grip.
Accidents give my rage
a place to go.
Body remembers what I won't.
Ghost says:
"What's the point?"
Closet holds conversations I never had.
Naked feels like a wound.
I dress it in layers
of "someday" and "not yet."
Shelves groan.
I add another.
The star in me
stopped asking to be seen…
She just waits now.
PRE-CHORUS
What if I let it out?
What if it stays?
What if the feeling
has nothing to say?
I keep it.
Hoarder. Hoarder.
I keep it.
That's the way.
CHORUS
Hoarder — save it all.
Don't look too close.
Shop and haul —
build the wall.
Hoarder —
Words pile but never fall.
Every feeling gets a box.
I sit on lid and lock.
Hoarder.
Hoarder.
VERSE 2
The wounds healed
but I keep the scars
as proof.
Crow says:
"What are you proving
and to whom?"
That question sits on the front step…
Weather eats it.
My back goes out —
when I won't.
Neck locks —
when I can't say no.
I am the museum
of unfelt things.
Curator never opens.
Exhibits never rest.
Ghost says:
"If you feel good,
something bad will follow."
Crow says:
There is no wrong.
Only what you keep
and what keeps you.
PRE-CHORUS
CHORUS
BRIDGE
A shelf breaks.
Everything spills.
Crow taps the fallen story.
"Now look."
The star wants to pour.
The Hoarder wants to store.
OUTRO
Crow says:
You who hoard the light —
have forgotten
you are made of light.
The cup in your hand —
is not for keeping.
The cup is for pouring.
Hoarder ghost disappears.
Now…
The path appears.
Crows on the wire, keeping watch over you 🐦⬛🖤
